i feel like im missing something

some sort of fundamental reason for living

i knew what it was at one time

but its like,..i lost it on accident

and its not under my bed,..i checked

Im afraid that i do know what it is

cause i hope its not that

im not especially excited about my future,..cause im pretty sure its gonna be like my life today

ive got a lot of people telling me that i cant do the things i want

and im going crazy

literally ,..off my rocker

part of it is that im missing part of myself

that i will never get back

two parts actually

and holy cow <—-robotics joke,….

im depressing

when the hell did that start? i guess i just post depressing stuff on tumblr

and there i go,…putting negative energy into the universe again

thats how bad things are born

and another part is that i dont know what to look forward to…

robotics,..yes

school,..its rough

College,..gotta get in first

i do have my friends

my glorious friends

ive gotta stick with them until i get over myself

maybe Mr.Harder and Mr.C can help me not be lame

and leah and brettni and nick and josie