I’m pretty tired of it sucking up my life and sanity

Its just a club

it is summer,…why am i worrying about this? 

is it who i am? if it is,…i dont want it to be,..i want fun

i want actual fun again

its fear,..who i am is insecure with her knowledge,..with her intelligence 

she always has been

but she is brilliant, and she has to remember she is below no one and above no one

she has to know that there are other important things in life

she has to know that she’ll be okay

she has to figure out that shes special for other things too

she knows what she wants to do and who she wants to be

she thinks she knows how to get there

she’ll learn it